inside my head and unhappy about it.

[bluecastle]

My brain is not being kind to me lately. I sorta hate my job, and I just want to be ... I dunno... anywhere else. I'm discovering I'm not all that fond of having to keep up with lots of long term projects. Like I feel like I really want some kind of a job where you come in, do x tasks, and then move on. But I asked for this job, so maybe I should try and make it work...

then I think about other ways to make money and think about my poor abandoned etsy shop, or some print-on-demand services to sell cards or something. But all of that takes time and energy, neither of which I have much of lately.

and I think about blogging, but always convince myself I have nothing worthy of talking about.

blech. blah. depression. doldrums. malaise.

so.

I need to change-up my energy, and I am thinking about really getting serious about decluttering my house in November. Like try and make a game of it, and find 11 things to get rid of every day (because November). I am not good at sticking to long term projects. But maybe if I have to find 11 things, the take a picture of them, and post that picture I'll be motivated enough?! And releasing 330 items from my house is a good goal, right? I took a trunk load of things down to the thrift shop drop off last night, and that felt good, but there is SO MUCH MORE STUFF I want to get rid of!!

Trying to stay at least a little positive, but it doesn't help that all kinds of people around me are sick, or in hospital, or basically dying soon, or have died recently.

So its time to release a few material things, and maybe a few mental ones will follow along... right?

Comments

[emyrldlady.livejournal.com]

That sounds like a great cleaning 'game'.

I've been working on my depression and am very actively trying to be positive and affirming without the whole mary sunshine routine.

Cleaning is good. I hate cleaning, I really don't want to tell you how much laundry is on my floor.

I cleaned my writing space this past weekend and man did that feel good. It was all piled up with mail and junk and no writing. I took a walk in the crisp air and bought a new book I knew nothing about. Just asked my FB page for a rec.

Baby steps.

[valancy-joy.livejournal.com]

Baby steps. Yes. I'm making a dent in my dishes and my laundry, but most of the house is still a bit like a Hoarders episode waiting to happen!!!

Hang in there! xo

[used_songs]

That's a really good idea. I always say I want to simplify and then I go and buy more pillows and blankets and other comfort items.