its very random up here in mah head.
May. 11th, 2012 12:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bluecastleI think I found the word to describe how I'm feeling lately ... restless.
When I'm at work I want to be at home. When I'm at home I want to be out doing SOMETHINGANYTHING.
Also I'm tired. Worn out, somehow, when I don't really do that much, especially as compared to my friends many of whom are juggling like 6 jobs.
And I have to be careful when I feel like just going back to bed, as one of my symptoms of an impending depressive episode is my desire to just sleep it away. So I always tend to ask myself "are you actually tired, or are you just trying to avoid life?" And sometimes I don't know! :)
Maybe I'm just really ready for the weekend. Director Cee wants me to help her with this reading she's prepping for next week. Maybe tonight over pizza. Last night we rehearsed at my friend's bookstore (she's directing Cee in this reading). Talked over the first two of six sections of this THING about the lady who ... invented? ... Theosophy. Spent WAY too much time arguing about vowel sounds when doing a Russian accent. But the cafe brought us a Monte Cristo sandwich. I'm so easy for maple syrup. And they had in a folkie singing his stuff and accompanying himself on his dulcimer. Gosh I love it there :) It's so much more than just a dusty basement!
So tired. restless. headachey. and touch starved. But, y'know, good. LOL OH ME.
Dear universe, please supply someone to provide a steady supply of pancakes, syrup and couch cuddles. love, me ;)
When I'm at work I want to be at home. When I'm at home I want to be out doing SOMETHINGANYTHING.
Also I'm tired. Worn out, somehow, when I don't really do that much, especially as compared to my friends many of whom are juggling like 6 jobs.
And I have to be careful when I feel like just going back to bed, as one of my symptoms of an impending depressive episode is my desire to just sleep it away. So I always tend to ask myself "are you actually tired, or are you just trying to avoid life?" And sometimes I don't know! :)
Maybe I'm just really ready for the weekend. Director Cee wants me to help her with this reading she's prepping for next week. Maybe tonight over pizza. Last night we rehearsed at my friend's bookstore (she's directing Cee in this reading). Talked over the first two of six sections of this THING about the lady who ... invented? ... Theosophy. Spent WAY too much time arguing about vowel sounds when doing a Russian accent. But the cafe brought us a Monte Cristo sandwich. I'm so easy for maple syrup. And they had in a folkie singing his stuff and accompanying himself on his dulcimer. Gosh I love it there :) It's so much more than just a dusty basement!
So tired. restless. headachey. and touch starved. But, y'know, good. LOL OH ME.
Dear universe, please supply someone to provide a steady supply of pancakes, syrup and couch cuddles. love, me ;)
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2012-05-12 03:12 pm (UTC)I want to cuddle. I love cuddling with my dog but--hello face of fur????
Arguing over Russian vowel pronunciation - you know how that made me smile. LOL!!!!
And yeah, I want to be in That Bed There too. But I made myself get up.