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Wandering around the internet today trying to get back in the groove of sitting at a desk from 8:30 to 5:30 and I came across a random blog comment which was something like "I just want to think what I think and feel what I feel, and not have to justify it to anyone" and a lightbulb went off in terms of why there are times I don't want to tell my mom about things I go and do. Stupid stuff, like she doesn't know there's a Movie Monday (Skyfall tonight I hope!) or random trips to a bookstore or to get food or something. Its not STUFF YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT ... its just stuff. That I don't want to talk about. And that word "justify" really twigged something in my brain. Its because I don't want to have to explain what I'm doing and deal with the potential judgement for just doing something just because I feel like it. 

I love Movie Monday's ... aside from some vague I have left my house halp now what do I do feelings ... and am thinking about expanding this practice somehow next year. A night at the movies, and then maybe a night out eating and reading by myself. ITS ANARCHY HOW DARE I? I joke about needed to date myself, but it feels right. Or feels interesting enough to pursue at least. So I'm mulling it over. Planning possible adventures. Also knowing I need to come to grips with how messy my house is. I think I'm rushing the plans for next year, but it doesn't hurt to think about things. I think?!

Thankfully, its only a three day week. And there will be masses of turkey and stuffing and pie ... now if the goddam cat will stop waking me up at 2 am and 6 am gnawing on my hair ...