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[bluecastle]

I seem to spend a lot of time whining to myself about being lonely. Which I often am... but I suspect the problem truly is suffering from a lack of human touch.

(Jesus. Writing those two sentences shouldn't make me start crying. But confirmation of my feelings. Yes. I think so.)

Which of course there's no easy fix for. It's just so hard to go weeks and weeks (and in some respects months and years) without the feel of another person's hands on my skin.

To know that I'm am closer to 44 than 43 and have never known what it feels like to have another person even reach out and take my hand in theirs.

I started thinking about this yesterday when my cat was sleeping next to me on the couch and he would keep stretching out his paws and touching my legs, just to know that I was there, nearby.

Oh, that would be so wonderful a thing, I think.

Anyway. I did not know that I would write this, but here it is.

(gosh. time to box those emotions back up now please! :)

This entry was originally posted at http://valancy-joy.dreamwidth.org/133727.html

Comments

[paragraphs.livejournal.com]

Awww VJ, I hear you, if only on the human-touch part. I know I've been lucky in life, but there are times I crave touching Nick so bad I can hardly stand it. I don't write about that either, usually, but yeah. Kitty touch is sweet! Maddox hugs me and I love that. I couldn't imagine life without pets.

[verasteine.livejournal.com]

You hang in there, honey! I sympathise with this, so much. ::hugs::