This wasn’t the entry I thought I was going to write… but I’ve found it’s better not to ignore these kinds of impulses…

I remembered just a bit ago that I have this deck of Tarot cards… and I was suddenly possessed of the desire to pull cards for 2009 and 2010 respectively.

Now, I know NOTHING, or next to that, about Tarot cards. But when I’m drawn to pull a card, it always tell me something true. Do I know what that means? Certainly not … but I believe in mysteries, so why not give it a whirl…

So I shuffled the deck, which lives in a wooden tea box called “The Magic Tea Box.” (Apropos, no?)

I cut the deck, and thought about what I was supposed to know about 2009, and pulled the Seven of Pentacles – Frustration.

Yep.

‘Cause I don’t know my cards, I gotta look ‘em up in my book… which tells me that 7P is about cycles, and seasons, and waiting for planted seeds to grow.

“Fear of failing, or indulging in worry about future results will not determine a favorable outcome. You must maintain a strong desire to achieve, even in the face of defeat. The roots have dug deeply into the soil and the garden will bloom again in its own time. Remember that it is neither profitable nor necessary to continually measure the growth of your project.”

Translation: Stop judging and start WRITING. :0)

A lot of 2009 was working on just this. I find myself unable to write and just sit here with my fingers on the keyboard pondering whether my story’s going to be any good. I must find a way to get over this block. Goals, man.

So then, I shuffled the cards again and thought about what I’m supposed to know about 2010, and pulled The Empress… and started crying as the book says something about dreams and unconditional love. But then it goes on …

“Creative inspiration and productivity are available to you …”

Yep.

So I don’t know what it all means, other than I should try and believe in myself more, you know? That’s a good New Year’s Resolution, right?

Happy New Year you guys. Here’s hoping 2010 is a good one!!!!

[formatting courtesy of lj which hates me and word equally]