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Feb. 7th, 2013 09:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bluecastleSo yesterday was the first hard day in my self-portrait class. Nothing brings out the insecurities like being asked to take a picture looking right into the camera. I got a picture that wasn't the greatest, but there was something THERE when I looked at myself, so I posted it, and HELLO second round of insecurities. We're encouraged to look at the other pictures in the group and post comments and whatnot, and when I looked at the day's accumulated photos I saw a lot of wonderful people looking back at me. And rationally I know my picture is just one of many ... but I saw all of them looking wonderful ... and I saw myself looking like a big blotchy pink marshmallowy pig eyed blob.
It's not a new thing. I've always more or less despised the way I look (the way I THINK I look anyway). It's part of the reason I'm taking this class. To see if I can shake things loose and start to see myself differently. Hoping I can. But its an interesting exercise to bump up against you larger insecurities and try and quiet the noises in your head.
Given the comments and other's pictures ... I know I'm not alone in feeling like this, and that always helps a bit too.
Today's prompt is "reflections" so that should be somewhat less traumatizing for all of us :)
Not much on my calendar for today, which gives me plenty of time to ponder this possible His Dark Materials cross-over I'm toying with attempting. It's the damn world-building you have to do first ... giving everyone daemons and whatnot is fun, but also you can't really write until you do it. As usual I have several lovely images in my head, but how to write a story around them ... ???
It's not a new thing. I've always more or less despised the way I look (the way I THINK I look anyway). It's part of the reason I'm taking this class. To see if I can shake things loose and start to see myself differently. Hoping I can. But its an interesting exercise to bump up against you larger insecurities and try and quiet the noises in your head.
Given the comments and other's pictures ... I know I'm not alone in feeling like this, and that always helps a bit too.
Today's prompt is "reflections" so that should be somewhat less traumatizing for all of us :)
Not much on my calendar for today, which gives me plenty of time to ponder this possible His Dark Materials cross-over I'm toying with attempting. It's the damn world-building you have to do first ... giving everyone daemons and whatnot is fun, but also you can't really write until you do it. As usual I have several lovely images in my head, but how to write a story around them ... ???
