spring fever? sunspots? full moon? halp.

It's very quiet in the library today. Well, except for some construction as they finish up the last phase of the first floor renovation. Also most of the staff in this department are off today for one reason or another.

Doing a lot of navel gazing as I try and construct a character. The thing about process pieces still in process is ... well... they're in process. In development. I have an awesome poem and the vague beginnings of a character, but where I take it from here is up to me. And I'm bad about making more or less random character choices.

Also, I am attributing this to the change in seasons but I'm very unsettled lately. Like I don't know who I am anymore. My outsides don't match my insides or something, and I hate 90% of my clothes. I swear I'm taking EVERYTHING out of my closet tonight and only putting the 25 best things back in it. UGH. I don't know what it is. Growing pains? When I'm at work I want to be at home. When I'm at home I want to be asleep. It's terrible feeling this itchy brain feeling.

Yeah. I don't know. The job's good. I'm sleeping pretty well since the bedroom renovation. (If you don't count the cat sneak attacking my face from behind the window curtains). I'm just ... awkward.

Lots of things don't make sense in my head right now. Hopefully I figure out something to make things better... otherwise I'm just twirling around making the world spinny until I fall over! LOL