in which I go on a bit...
Feb. 23rd, 2011 04:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bluecastleWow. Okay. So twitter hates me right now (despite liking other people), and my headache is coming back, and the urge to kill pussycat kill is very strong right now for no very good reason.
So I am sipping my coffee and gazing at this here dress I just ordered even though I am poor ... but MA it was onna internet sale rack and I've been lusting over it for months now and they actually had it in what I hope is my size since I can't return it. So.
Breathing.
Do not want to be all tense and shit. It's too hard to write Drunk!Rhys when I'm all jammed up ... and I need to finish/start/pull fic rabbit out of hat by this weekend so I can beg some poor one of you to beta it for me ;)
One more hour of work to go.
Oh, also, summer theater auditions are next week, so now I gotta decide if I want to audition. Even the BFF crawled out from his shadowy nether existence to shoot me an email and say "hey, wanna audition right after me?" (This year we can book times instead of waiting around for ever. Which might be a good idea in theory but something about that is pissing me off for reasons unknown.) But since I can't find any descriptive info on the plays for summer 2011 on the theater website ... this is hampering my deeskishions.
(clearly I am in an odd mood as displayed by my word choices/inventing new spellings things I've got going atm.)
So, one one hand, if I -- me ... who has been doing theater for the last 30 years more or less -- has never heard of/knows very little about the play slate (obvs. the musicals ... Into the Wood and that Putnam Spelling Bee one are recognizable, but as I don't sing ... I'm out of the running for anything except the plays.) I have to wonder. I mean, I had fun doing McThingy last summer but it was a stupid stupid play and I get really tired of the "why did you waste your time on that crap" feedback ...
But there's this sort of low lying air of "why aren't you in more shows" ... and "why don't you come out and play with us any more" ... and while there are lots of very valid reasons to say "the shows are stupid" or "they didn't cast me" (that one's always met with amazement, but its more the rule than the exception actually), or "I don't have time." But it's a very small, very incestuous (in some ways) community and everything you do or don't do ends up leaving ripples in the pond.
So I'll probably adapt last year's attitude and go in completely unprepared, and if there's a place for me, then fine."
Unlike the BFF who is gunning to reprise his role as Jack in Into the Woods. Like "I WILL DIE IF I DO NOT GET THE PART I WANT" levels of drama and flailing. I can relate tho as I did the same thing when they didn't cast me as Lady Bracknell in Earnest. Its a part I was born to play and someday someone will recognize that. But I cried for three days straight when I didn't get cast, and stopped doing theater for about three years. OH I WAS CRUSHED. I don't hold out a lot of hope for him... it's been a long time since high school drama honey. But I'll hold your hand. Because that's what I do. Every stupidly faithful me.
Anyway.... this was supposed to be short, and I didn't know I wanted to talk about any of this... but clearly venting is what was needed. See what happens when Twitter don't like me????
So I am sipping my coffee and gazing at this here dress I just ordered even though I am poor ... but MA it was onna internet sale rack and I've been lusting over it for months now and they actually had it in what I hope is my size since I can't return it. So.
Breathing.
Do not want to be all tense and shit. It's too hard to write Drunk!Rhys when I'm all jammed up ... and I need to finish/start/pull fic rabbit out of hat by this weekend so I can beg some poor one of you to beta it for me ;)
One more hour of work to go.
Oh, also, summer theater auditions are next week, so now I gotta decide if I want to audition. Even the BFF crawled out from his shadowy nether existence to shoot me an email and say "hey, wanna audition right after me?" (This year we can book times instead of waiting around for ever. Which might be a good idea in theory but something about that is pissing me off for reasons unknown.) But since I can't find any descriptive info on the plays for summer 2011 on the theater website ... this is hampering my deeskishions.
(clearly I am in an odd mood as displayed by my word choices/inventing new spellings things I've got going atm.)
So, one one hand, if I -- me ... who has been doing theater for the last 30 years more or less -- has never heard of/knows very little about the play slate (obvs. the musicals ... Into the Wood and that Putnam Spelling Bee one are recognizable, but as I don't sing ... I'm out of the running for anything except the plays.) I have to wonder. I mean, I had fun doing McThingy last summer but it was a stupid stupid play and I get really tired of the "why did you waste your time on that crap" feedback ...
But there's this sort of low lying air of "why aren't you in more shows" ... and "why don't you come out and play with us any more" ... and while there are lots of very valid reasons to say "the shows are stupid" or "they didn't cast me" (that one's always met with amazement, but its more the rule than the exception actually), or "I don't have time." But it's a very small, very incestuous (in some ways) community and everything you do or don't do ends up leaving ripples in the pond.
So I'll probably adapt last year's attitude and go in completely unprepared, and if there's a place for me, then fine."
Unlike the BFF who is gunning to reprise his role as Jack in Into the Woods. Like "I WILL DIE IF I DO NOT GET THE PART I WANT" levels of drama and flailing. I can relate tho as I did the same thing when they didn't cast me as Lady Bracknell in Earnest. Its a part I was born to play and someday someone will recognize that. But I cried for three days straight when I didn't get cast, and stopped doing theater for about three years. OH I WAS CRUSHED. I don't hold out a lot of hope for him... it's been a long time since high school drama honey. But I'll hold your hand. Because that's what I do. Every stupidly faithful me.
Anyway.... this was supposed to be short, and I didn't know I wanted to talk about any of this... but clearly venting is what was needed. See what happens when Twitter don't like me????
